For some reason, God created me with the personality trait of perfectionism. It has it's goods but it also has it's bads: this world we live in is not perfect, so I've always had anxiety issues because of it. I recently discovered I have extreme social anxiety. People have always thought I am stuck up (I know this is fact) but the truth is I'm scared of you. I'm scared of people. I am also scared of myself. This fear causes trust issues, more anxiety, depression, anger and the worst fear I've ever had to deal with-that I am not a good enough mom to raise God's precious children, that I am going to fail them, because now it isn't just about me and my life, it's about the eternal life of 3 very special kids.
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